I am one of those folks who loves to practice. I like to drive a course, run it if possible, wear in advance what I’m going to have on, and do every little thing I can to make “the big day” more predictable. I was happy as a pig in shit today to have a very realistic transition practice clinic. The only thing better would be to actually do the race once in advance (you laugh, but my first Danskin I pretty much did that).
That was a good thing about today but there were several things that really were not so good. These things weighed on me. The stuff that really truly gets to me revolves around only a few things–mainly relationships with other people. I used to think of myself as an easy person to get along with but there have been so many things over the last couple of years that show me that there are quite a few people who find me difficult to get along with. And this pains me. Even when they are people who I know are misguided or poorly motivated or someone I should be able to shrug off. I still have a hard time letting go of those painful things.
So with all this miscellaneous stuff going on, I decided to do something pleasant that I enjoy in order to pick up my spirits; I took my doggie to the doggie park on this beautiful afternoon. Oh, he loves running around with the other dogs and they are all so cute, and I sit in the sunshine and throw rocks and chase and have a great time. And then, there in the parking lot, hanging out, is somebody I really, really don’t like to see. One of these people who’s been a shit to me recently. Normally, I act like nothings wrong and say hello and try to be the bigger person, but I just couldn’t today.
I don’t know when I’ll get past this. It just sucks.