Going Inward Pre-Race

For the last few days, I’ve really gone inward. I’ve never had an event affect me quite like this.

Normally, I’m a pretty outward sort; I like people, I need people around me, and I enjoy contact. But when I get into this intense kind of focus, I draw in. Too much people contact is sensory overload. I mull things over in my mind and don’t talk a lot. It’s like everything has to stew and process. I spend time by myself. I understand why my friend Corey opted to drive alone.

It’s hard to be this way because it feels selfish. One of the hardest things about all the Ironman stuff has been what I’ve called “being selfish” but is really simply putting myself first. In the grand scheme of things, I’m taking, what, a week (?) of loony time for myself for something that is really big and important to me.

I think my family understands.

I hope they understand.

To step out of my self-absorbtion for a few seconds:  my dear friend is going through a very tough time. I wish there was something I could do to help with everything but I’m afraid there isn’t much of anything I can do but send love. And I am sending lots your way.

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Published by Leah Nyfeler

I'm a writer, editor, runner, and adventurer who is always looking for the next new story, exciting adventure, and good meal/book/movie. My focus is on helping people find their best, healthiest self through sharing what I know and how I've come to learn it. In addition to my blog "Enjoying the Journey: Observations on the Fit Life" at www.leahruns100.com, my articles have appeared in a variety of print and online magazines. You can hear me as part of the 2015 Austin cast of Listen To Your Mother.

0 thoughts on “Going Inward Pre-Race

  1. looniness

    Bah! A week of looniness (actually it is 8.5 days, but let\’s call it a week) is a tiny price for us to pay. You\’ve come this far, and we can\’t wait to see you cross that finish line. We\’re here for you 100%, whether you are inwardly focused or exwardly focused. Go LEAH!

    – The Husband

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