The morning sky blazed with orange, pink, red, and yellow. A November sunrise on a clear, crisp morning is a spectacularly gorgeous thing, and we stopped breathlessly in our tracks to admire the beauty. Trees and golf course nets stood black, outlined against the brightness; ahead of us stretched a few more miles of empty road, waiting.
Now, I’m not truly a morning person but I love starting and finishing a run early. On this morning, we’d begun in the dark, well before sunrise, at Mile 2 of Austin’s Run for the Water course — the goal, to finish and head back to our cars while cheering on runners. We’d just passed the first mile marker when, in the distance, the gun fired and we heard that soul-stirring sound of unleashed runners cheering as they streamed across the start.
In those pre-dawn hours, my friend Ginny and I had had a really lovely run. As we fartleked our way through the miles, my body felt good. What felt even better were my spirits. One year ago, we’d done the same workout — and that morning had been a milestone, my longest run since I’d been sidelined by crazy fatigue. In November 2016, I was depressed, stuck in what I’d described as a “vicious circle”: tired, unable to exercise, and increasingly isolated. None of my doctors could figure out why I was so wiped out. My weight climbed. All of it made me depressed, ashamed (“Is Depression the Cause or Result?” was a very hard piece to write), and angry at losing my active lifestyle.
But, slowly and steadily, I battled my way back. Two years later, on that November 2018 morning, being on the comeback trail felt so good! Things were looking up, right? The very next weekend, I fell hard on my knee. Back to the sidelines. Months of recovery; painful workouts. And slowly and steadily battling my way back, again.
And here I was on this gorgeous November morning. Again.
A beautiful sunrise is always better after a run. Perhaps it’s even more beautiful because I’ve worked so hard to find my way back.
What a wonderful post. You inspire me!
Girlfriend, welcome back to yourself! It does feel good doesn’t it? I identified with your story of up and down and up and down and back up. I am finally accepting that it’s part of life and more so the older I get. When I am “down”, I try to keep the knowledge and belief in my head that I will be back up at some point and my difficulties will pass. I’ve done it so many times I should be good at it, but with age each time is an entirely different experience. I am so glad you are feeling like yourself again and your sunrise is gorgeous! Enjoy every minute!
It was a fabulous run! I felt comfortable and happy the whole time. Thank you for being such a perfect running buddy❤️